dedicated especially to MR FJ . ♥

Dia memang hanya dia
Ku selalu memikirkannya , Tak pernah ada habisnya . .
Benar dia , benar hanya dia
Ku selalu menginginkannya , Belaian dari tangannya . .
Mungkin hanya dia 

Harta yang paling terindah , Di perjalanan hidupku , Sejak derap denyut nadiku . .
Mungkin hanya dia
Indahnya sangat berbeda , Ku haus merindukannya . .

Ku ingin kau tahu isi hatiku
Kaulah yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Tak ada yang lain hanya kamu , Tak pernah ada , Takkan pernah ada . .

Benar dia , benar hanya dia
Ku selalu menginginkannya , Belaian dari tangannya . .
Mungkin hanya dia
Indahnya sangat berbeda , Ku haus merindukannya . .

Ku ingin kau tahu isi hatiku
Kaulah yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Tak ada yang lain hanya kamu , Tak pernah ada , Takkan pernah ada . .

Ku ingin kau selalu di fikiranku
Kau yang selalu larut dalam darahku
Tak ada yang lain

Hanya kamu
Tak pernah ada , Takkan pernah ada . .

LIFE LIFE LIFE . HMM~

i was hoping for a miracle . 

 seriously , i feel EMPTY . );

OMGGGG . hahaa .

okay , as i were busy checking out this Doghouse Diaries comics then i found this . hahaa .

omg , boy , is this true ? hahahahaaaa .

FAIRYTALE . . . .

i wonder , if my life was about to change as the fairytale , how could it feel . (:

imagine , i could live happily in a big castle with lots of magical item in it , and everything will be done as i wish for it .

then , i'd have my own bedroom with king-size bed . a talking mirror just like in the snow white story . hee .

auww , i would rather sleep there for the rest of my life without doing anything . hee . (:

i can wear anything i wanna wear and do anything i like . talk a walk to the garden , pick up flowers , sing happily with the animals . hahaa .

Gosh , it was so heaven . :)

the best part is , i'll find my price charming . he would do anything for me , sacrifices everything he have just to be with me .

and lastly , we will live happily ever after . (:

and then , I've discovered as I've grown up that life is far more complicated than you think it is when you're a kid . It isn't just a straightforward fairytale . Only those who truly love and who are truly strong can sustain their lives as a dream . 

I am dwell in my own enchantment . life throws stones at me , but my love and my dream change those stones into the flowers of discovery . even if i lose, or are defeated by things , my triumph will always be exemplary . And if no one knows it , then there are places that do . (:

ohh , that girl sgt BITCH .

so , the story was like this .

as i were busying on9 just now , then one girl named DANIA ANA who is always disturbing my mind and my life .

ish , she kept bothering me ouh . 

(gilaa benci mcm nk pukul dye dush dush dush )

okay okay , back to the story .

out of sudden , she appeared on my imchat .

then , dah laa tbe tbe tanye aku pasal juffa . siap tnye , kenape aku ngan juffa dah ta relationship .

wth , suke hati kitowg laa nk hide kan kew ape kew .

then bole ckp kat aku , juffa kate kitowg da break . bodo kn . saket hati aku .

rase cm nak maki pown ade , apetah suke sgt amek tahu hal owg . so , aku pown ngadu laa kat myhubby .

then , myhubby pown ckp , dye tu gilaa n suke sgt nk rosakkan hbgn org .

haish , gilaa gilaa . ta sgke dat she is really really a bitch . da ade bf da laa wehh , tayah laa kacau hidup aku lagi . haish .

so , as the conclusion ,  i've block her from my fren list . who's next ? tgok laa .

                                            

miss him like hell~

hubby , i miss you so much . really really miss you .
for God sake , i miss you like hell . and it makes me feel like crying .
i miss your voice , i miss your smile , i miss your laugh . and obviously , i miss everything about you . <3
and i really really wanna meet you sayang , so much .
i love you so fucking damn much sygg .

THE DAY ♥

DEAREST , MOHD FARID JUFFA BIN JAFAR . 

Alhamdulillah , we are a year and three months now . 

just to let him know .

baby , on our anniversary , 

i want you to know that you're still the one , who is everything .

i could ever hope for the one i love . (that is you)

with all my heart and soul .

and forever , it always be you . <3

anniversary .

okay , bercakap pasal anniversary ney , esok genaplah SETAHUN TIGA BULAN aku dengan juffa mengharungi suka duka hidup bersama sebagai pasangan kekasih . (:

kejap jewp mase tu berlalu kn kn kn . hee .

n kan besh if juffa ingat tarikh ney , n wish . hee .

tp mshtilaa dye ta ngat . 

he was so bz wh his stuff , sian saya , mcm terpinggir . tp tapelaa , saya faham dye . n saya syg dye sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt . saya syg dye sebesar alam ney ouh . (:

so , this is exactly dedicated for him .

You're my everything
And nothing really matter what the love you bring
You're my everything
To see you in the morning with those big brown eyes
You're my everything
Forever and the day I need you close to me
You're my everything
You never have to worry never fear
Coz I'm in near

For my everything
I left up from the land and see the sky above
I swim within her ocean sweet and warm
There no strong my love

When I hold your tight
And nothing that can harm you in a lonely night
I'll come to you and keep you safe and warm
There no storm my love

You're my everything
the sunshine above you make the blue bird sing
The star that twinkle way up in the sky
Tell me I'm in love

When I kiss you lips
I feel the roaring thunder to my finger tip
Deep within I'm in love

You're my everything
And nothing really matter
You 're my everything
To see you in the morning with those big brown eye

you are my everything ,MUHD FARID JUFFA BIN JAFAR <3

guilty . :(

i feel very guilty today . as i woke up , i got a message from her , telling me that the bus station i've told her last nyte was already moved to pudu .

haish , i really really don't know . bengong punye member bg salah information . aku dah laa tataw pape . 

dah tu , got no credit to reply pula . n now , mmg da menggunung rase bersalah sgt sgt . hmm .

so , to atiqah wadihah , i'm really really sorry babe . :(

i memang tataw pape , kalau u naik ikowt bkt jalil cm i aja tu pown mshti lagi senang kn .

sorry sorry sorry . from the very bottom of my heart .

saya sayang papa saya .

mungkin ibu lbh kerap menelefon utk menanyakan keadaan kita setiap hari  . Tp tahukah kita , sebenar nya ayah lah yg mengingatkan ibu utk menelefon kita ?

Semasa kecil, ibu lah yg lebih sering mendukung kita . Tp tahukah kita bahawa sebaik saja ayah pulang bekerja dgn wajah yg letih ayahlah slalu menanyakan apa yg kita lakukan seharian ? 

Saat kita sakit atau demam , ayah sering membentak "sudah diberitahu! jgn minum ais!" . Tp tahukah kamu bahwa ayah sangat risau ??

Ketika kita remaja , kita meminta izin untk keluar malam . Ayah dgn tegas berkata "tidak boleh!" . Sedarkah kita bhw ayah hanya ingin menjaga kita ? Krn bagi ayah , kita adlh sesuatu yg sangat berharga .

Saat kita sudah d percayai , ayah pun melonggarkan peraturannya . Maka kita telah melangar kpercayaan nya . Maka ayah lah yg setia menunggu kita di ruang tamu dgn rasa sangat risau .

Setelah kita dewasa , ayah telah mghantar kita ke sekolah atau kolej untuk belajar . Di saat kita memerlukan ini-itu , utk keperluan kuliah kita , ayah hanya mengerutkan dahi . tanpa menolak , beliau memenuhinya . 

Saat kamu berjaya , ayah adalah org pertama yg berdiri dan bertepuk tangan untukmu . Ayah akan tersenyum dngan bangga .

Sampai ketika jodoh kita telah datang dan meminta izin untuk mengambil kita dari ayah . Ayah sangat berhati-hati mengizinkan nya . Dan akhirnya , saat ayah melihat kita duduk di atas pelamin bersama pasangan nya , ayahpun tersenyum bahagia . Apa kita tahu , bahawa ayah sempat pergi ke belakang dan menangis ? 

Ayah menangis krn ayah sangat bahagia .

Dan diapun berdoa "Ya Tuhan, tugasku telah selesai dgn baik . Bahagiakan lah putra putri kecilku yg manis bersama pasangannya" .

Setelah itu ayah hanya akan menunggu kedatangan kita brsma cucu-cucunya yg sesekali dtg utk menjenguk . Dengan rambut yg memutih dan badan yg tak lagi kuat untuk menjaga kita .

beloved papa , Sharuddin bin Samah .

Ya Allah , berkatilah bapa ku selalu . berkatilah hidupnya Ya Allah . sesungguhnya , aku sayangkan bapa ku lebih dari nyawa ku . 

appreciate your life ♥

life is too short .

grudges are a waste of perfect happiness .

so , laugh while you can . apologizes when you should and try letting go all of things you can't change .

remember , love deeply and try to forgive quickly .

take all the chances , gives everything you have with all your heart and have no regrets on it .

life is too short to be unhappy .

we have to take all the good with the bad .

just smile even when you are not happy . try to love what you got but always remember what you had .

always forgive but never forget .

learn form all your mistakes but never regret .

because , people change and things go wrong .

but always REMEMBER .

that , LIFE GOES ON .

live your life happily while you can  (:

BLACKBERRY plishh .!

  

i don't know why , but kebelakangan ney , mcm termimpi mimpi jewp kat pakcik BLACKBERRY CURVE ney . haish . apsal ehh ? adakah sesiapa yg nak belikan aku fon ney ? memandangkan fon aku skunk ney pown tggu mase nk baling dlm longkang jewp . hahaa .

aisehhh , bile nak dpt bb ney . kan besh kalau aku ney jutawan , o dapat dato' dato tue mane nk taja aku kn . gilaa gempak hidop . hahaaa .

uish , gilaa dah aku ney , nak mampos taja taja ney . hahaaa . ta pasal pasal tergadai body nati . 

ta kisah laa pape pown , aku mmg nk sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt laa bb ney . bia laa ape pown yg terjadi . cewahh cewahh . :p